Reborn

已經一週有多了。沒有忙碌的日子，沒有太多朋友在auckland的日子其實都極度空虛，亦無可能日日煩住哥哥，姐姐呢個禮拜在考試，我都5想打擾到他們，所以亦決定不去他們家。一個人其實靜得清閒，除了interview可以讓我在city裡來回之外，很多時間都在家。百無聊賴，感覺好似一個廢人。真的希望可以快點忙碌起來，很想找點東西去做。房東說我是一個閒不住的人，總想忙碌。 其實我亦覺得是，因為一個人對住4面牆，實在空虛得寂寞。大家都在忙著自己的事情，我却樂得清閒。這樣的生活，我很討厭。但願能夠快點找到我心目中的job position，這樣很快就會和以前一樣充實了。

成日有事就鍾無艷，無事就夏迎春，成日都是感，祢早投拉，我已經好有patience, 忍完又忍，我同祢講，忍無可忍，就無須再忍了。 呢兩日總算系akl settle down了，系新的環境，自然好多事情都好fresh,新的房東，新的屋企，新的location。經常lost my way。 房東是一個天津人，大概45歲拉，一般老，不過我好中意聊距，距成日話我，祢口花花，阿婆祢都岩。。。 我覺得除左距是一個勁潔癖的人之外，其他都好好人，第一日離到新的屋企，乾淨到嚇我一跳。 不過第二日，我覺得原來呢個人，除左5識煮飯，愛乾淨，其他野都勁犀利，比如距份工，software developer。。。 不過距好愛距個仔，基本上可以誇張到距個仔著衫距幫手扣衫鈕。17歲的人了，有一個全天候服侍的阿媽。。我5知距個仔以後點independent。 講到我間新屋，自然一提既就是果個從來5翻離既女房客，聽講距一個禮拜翻一日。。。我真是好想睇下距個真面目。。。拭目以待！ 講到最開心的，就是又可以吃到姐姐的住家菜，以前系hamilton經常5想吃飯，主要是好難吃，根本無胃口，而家，我經常講，5該姐姐，我要多碗飯添~~ :) 同哥哥距地一起吃飯好開心，又吃到姐姐的住家菜，又可以咩都講，飯後又有湯又有甜品。。。。我林我可以好快肥。跟住吃完飯又節目豐富，一時去篤波，一時去打機，遲下可能去放煙花。。。真是“羅慢替客” 我雖然而家無另一半，不過見到距地每一日都感開心感幸福感煮飯仔，有時都好羨慕，5知我個miss right系邊呢？系度做緊咩呢？希望我個miss right以後都可以好似姐姐感煮到一手正菜就好嚕。。。。 好，伯恆而家系auckland報到完畢，交翻俾新聞部....

突然lulu聯繫翻我，和我講起很多以前和他們現在，講著講著，便講起了距。。。lulu問我，距，系祢心目中已經5是重點了吧？ 我回答到：距，一個離我心臟最近的人。 很可笑的回答。不過我已經5再心疼了，lulu祢放心吧，我不會讓愛惜我的人失望。朋友家人工作娛樂，一樣都可以很幸福。lulu，請祢繼續見證給她戴上戒指的男孩們。。。至少祢可以告訴他們，我是第一個。至少告訴他們，我給她戴上的戒指，是再無名指上。至少告訴他們，她不喜歡吃蔥。好嗎？答應我，好好看著她。 不用叫我放開心情了，我無辦法做到嘎了。不過 我一個人死，好過含家產。 只要大家族可以好開心，犧牲我一個，又何妨呢。是米？

睇人跳傘就成日都見，睇電視，睇真人show，不過自己跳都是第一次。
好開心我個好朋友chris同距屋企人補翻慶祝我今年的生日特別節目，跳傘。。。。我地揀左系最緊張的deadline of design exhibition之前跳。我跳之前個晚都無訓到，成晚做design,painting exhibition boards 同埋同韓國仔吹水。。。。所以帶著一副極度疲累的身軀去跳傘。
第二日早上，Chris 8點5夠就離搵我，用距阿媽岩岩買的新車接我，其實特等開到學校，show比其他人睇。。。哎，何必呢，何必。
跟住我更是系部車度訓拉，開左幾耐，開到邊都5知了，反正我一訓醒，就到左跳傘的地方了。吃完lunch，我地就開始著跳傘公司安排好既suit，經過半個鐘頭，幾百條帶邦住系身度。2，3個人幫你著傘，好似你系皇帝感。。。哈哈。
下午3點，飛機到步。我地一行4人連jumpers 總共8人上飛機。我最後一個上。
好明顯，我是第一個跳。。。。
當飛機飛過雲層，再都睇5到地面時，已經是1萬二千尺的高空。我既jumper同我講，第一，我地而家跳了，第二，你要。。。。
我邊有心機聽距講阿，望住個窗口，又興奮又驚驚下。。。
突然，距打開個門，一陣狂風吹入離，飛機開始搖搖下。。。我將我的腳伸出機倉，望下下面，靜是見到d雲，我個jumper講，are u ready?
chris距地大叫，下面見拉！！！我點頭。
jumper用力一推，我地就跳左出去。。。
身體根本控制5到自己，天旋地轉，我根本分5到天同地，我見到飛機，又突然見到太陽，又見到地平線，跟住就穿入雲層，一陣濕氣過後，全個city突然出現系你眼前，但我地仍然以時速5知幾多公里下墜，真是快過火箭。。。我同jumper做左個superman pose。我又扮左個游水蛙式動作，突然jumper拉開降落傘。。。。感覺突然比人抽翻上天空感，5夠1秒，岩先的瘋狂下墜感無晒，呢個時候我見到chris距地系我下面，原來我個jumper用左個大降落傘，我可以停留系空中更加耐。。。。睇更多野。。。正阿！

jumper 開始介紹呢個town的明胜比我聽，成個導遊感。。。哈哈原來系天空度睇呢個世界是感正嘎。。。你可以見到海鷗系你身邊飛過，你見到湖的珊瑚焦，好正。。。真是好正。其實好難用言語去形容。
接近降落了，因為降落地點傍邊是一條馬路，好多車都停下來，望住你，有d系度影你，自己覺得成個明星感。。。哈哈
最後，成功降落了。
系翻去的路上，我地好興奮感講緊跳傘的感覺。。。我望住車窗外的風景，覺得跳傘其實好似人生感，當飛機起飛時，就是我地成長，慢慢爬上天空，當自由落體時，好刺激，好瘋狂，好似青春期，當降落傘打開，好似中年感，尋求安穩帶有快樂。
最後，如果你地有機會去跳傘，5好猶豫，做拉，5是你會後悔。
d短片我遲d post上youtube, 而家送d相比你地睇先。你地睇我space個相簿。

好耐無寫blog了，或者根本5想去讓別人看穿自己內弱的一面，又或者，我根本不知道應該寫些甚麼。因為根本沒有甚麼值得我可以放上離。

每一次收到很多好朋友對我的祝福和鼓勵，我總會偷偷的感動得落淚，一個人坐在家中的草地上，望著天上的星星，多麼希望這些微笑可以出現在我身邊。哪怕是一分鐘，我好貪婪的希望你地都可以系我身邊。

很久沒有笑容了，每次的笑容都來的那麼虛假，做作，酒肉朋友的互相敬偎，每一次都很害怕地倚偎在這些人群裡，哪怕一個眼神，足夠另自己害怕得退步，擔心別人的疏遠，所以每一次都很努力地賠笑，很努力地接近，但每一次站在別人家中却被無視，自己恨不得馬上離開這個不歡迎我的地方。在這裡，另我懷念童年的開心，沒有任何綑綁。

最近最近的開心可能追索到我生日，突然的surprise，陌生的祝福，感覺還是很sweet,sweet，至少，還有人為了我去做蛋糕，去 計畫著給我驚喜，很久沒有試過感動的味道。那一次，即使沒有了她的日子，我還是可以證明我可以被朋友們感動而落淚。看著陌生的微笑，心裡面心疼著這些好朋友為我花的時間。

還有兩個禮拜了。是時候對hamiltonsay bye了，感覺自己生活在一個輿自己格格不入的地方。終於快要離開了，卻有那麼一些不捨得。是人還是物另我留戀？ 可能這就是傳說中的到了離開才想珍惜。。。

Congratulations by myself first... because I jumped to level 5 now... i have been so happy since I know that good news.In the past, I always felt up set and homes i was homesick for a long time,In particular, I lost someone else,I lived in the dark place and felt freezing whole last term. however,its change now...every thing has begun well for a week, even excited and fascinated my my heart. I have to thank my friends who support my whole the time,especially when they heard I skipped to level 5,they as more happy than me.. thank you guys!! I am going to study hard continuously,I still running before I can walk

This is a story about me and my girlfriend--Yi Mingting~~~however,we have broken up since Sep.~~~~ I don't want this moment to ever end Where everything's nothing without you I wait here forever just to see you smile cause it's true I am nothing without you Through it all I made my mistakes I'll stumble and fall but I mean these words I want you to know with everything I won't let this go I'll hold onto this moment you know Cause I bleed my heart out to show that I won't let go thoughts read unspoken forever and now ~~~~~~ And pieces of memories fall to the ground I know what I didn't have so I won't let this go Cause it's true I am nothing without you All the streets where I walked alone with nowhere to go These words are my heart and soul I'll hold onto this moment you know Cause I bleed my heart out to show that I won't let go In front of your eyes it falls from the skies when you don't know what you're looking to find In front of your eyes it falls from the skies when you just never know what you will find What you will find

today,we were going to the lake where was for us sailing and traveling at the weekend with good weather,and good mood. I supprised that my landlord got 3 three yachts which parked on the this lake where I didnot know the location even now. sorry about that...We were cooking some food, chatting and sleeping in this yacht although it is extremely thin and out of my imaging,however, we still very enjoy sailing each other and with nice relationship... funny thing is that I drove this yacht is my first time and without any experience about that they hope for..hah but we still safety after sailing..hah here I post some of them today's on the my photo album...check on it and find the house which is my dream house hope for

I arrived here(NZ) for about more than two months, In these two months, I could say my life is completely change. In the past, I got my friends, relatives, my parents and my girlfriend who I thought we could get married in the future. However, When I came to NZ, all the things gone, and left me alone,I didnot have any friends who hanged out with me sincerely; I lose my girlfriend who I deeply love.I lose all the people who lived in China. I told by myself,I have to be stronger than everyone who despise and laugh at me in some case even my x-girlfriend. However, I still cry in my bedroom by myself when sometimes I saw the sweet couples on the road, when I feel lonely. Am i stronger than yesterday's me??? not very, at that time...But I will be fine, i mean, I have to have option now,and tomorrow...I still keep going, move on... even they laugh at me, even I got lots of pressures on my shoulder. Anyway. I will keep going by myself, although there is lonely sometimes, I have to say, do not give up easily.dont u?